Story of my life.

that spark is still there.

2010-03-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

im gonna start off with school.
SCHOOL WAS FCUKING STRESSFUL,ESPECIALLY CT! i didnt complete it and when time was almost up,ALL my info on trigo just came back into mah head. fcuk fcuk fcuk! other than that,it was fine. After school,had dance/cheerleading practice. I was off mood ever since they one sentence you said,"sial uh,tak nak uh sia! nanti tak leyh tengok laki hot. kat town banyak laki hot,nanti tak lawa." or you said something like that. i know we're not together anymore but that kinda affected me,a lil bit.
other than that,dance/cheerleading was fine. there was this moment where you&i made eye contact. its not any other ordinary eye contact,it had that spark&all our past reminiscence came back into mah head. i suddenly thought of the past and that just made me miss 'us' more,y'know.
im just hoping the day would come,if it ever does occur. i've NEVER tried knowing some new RANDOM girl or asking for their contacts. I'm not tryna' prove anything but i guess this shows how much i am willing to change just for you.
you know that i still love you and you'll always be mah boo. :D

if only you knew.

2010-03-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

HAIYYYY.

Kinda feeling down right now,like seriously. If only i knew the answer,then i shouldn't have asked.
You're not the same! YOU are different from all the other girls I've met and that makes you special. I just want you back,that would be my BIGGEST wish. I know you're still considering and I've been waiting&I will. Those words........ Those words you said to me. It made me feel that i should give up on you but I wont. I still love you. This feeling did not fade ever since the break up.
I'll be waiting for you.

I LOVE YOU.

hate life!

2010-03-21T01:38:00.000-07:00

well,the day started off quite naggy.
parents nagged at me&all.
i was late for the futsal competition&arrived at 11:30am.
i played the first match,scored a goal.
was quite happy but we lost,2-1.
second match i played. all was confident we could win but in the end,lost 2-1 and i scored 1!
so,15-ed home with a dissapointed face. HAHAHA.
and have been doing hmwrk ever since. school's just a waste of my time but education is important.
homework,still lots undone. DIE DIE DIE!
tmr there is common test,MT! just finished holidays,and CT already started. MT is my WEAKEST subject,believe it or not. -.-
well im tryna' look on the bright side,friends are there&especially AMYLIA♥!
haven't seen in a loooong time,hah.

im always hoping you would come back to me one day.

my last wish,my first hope.

2010-03-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

hello readers. :D

yesterday was awesome. Went out with Haja,Rashidah&Amylia♥ to dhouby ghaut.
We intended to watch a movie but in the end,Amy&Rashidah watched cause they were late and our movie would start very late. So,Haja&I waited for Amy&Rashidah to finish their movie.
After that,Amy's sis&boyf treated us fooooooooood. :D
thanks for the treat Juben&boyf.
then,headed home.
i asked Amy a favour,a kinda HUGE one but she agreed to it.
i kinda regretted asking for that favour cause I miss 'us' more than ever.
Like what Azlinah said 'dont hope too much,cause it wont happen'.
how am i suppose not to hope?
i miss 'us' and i still love you,alot.
you'll always be my boo♥

all those lies.

2010-03-07T01:19:00.002-08:00

ALL THOSE LIES.
It will affect us as friends. How am i suppose to trust you? 2weeks of utter dishonesty. you should've told me earlier. I HATE LIARS! i mean,who doesnt?
you lied to me,for 2weeks! you dont think that's long? you should've told me,at least the outcome wont be that bad but you chose to LIE!
For 2weeks i actually and LITERALLY trusted you but still,you lied.
i dont know how this will affect us,as friends.
but im telling you,i aint coming easy.
AHHH! LIAR,LIAR,LIAR.
you're lucky you're a girl. THE GIRL WHOM I FELL DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH!
still,you didnt and you choose to cover it up.
FYI : YOU ARE GOOD AT COVERING THINGS UP!
you convinced me that you LOVE me when you knew you didnt.
i will never hate you as a person but i hated you for your ACTIONS!

YOU'RE THE BEST AND THE WORST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME!

all those lies.

2010-03-07T01:19:00.001-08:00

how could this happen to me?

2010-03-05T16:11:00.000-08:00

yet another breakup. it is expected,the way you texted me and the way you treated me.
it's just so obvious that it will happen again,soon.
the reason why i didnt take it lightly is because you are different. In my eyes,you have that spark.
you're just different from the others,whom i've met before.
my life has been very simple ever since you came into my life.
but now,you've stepped out of it and idk if things will ever be the same.
even though your feelings have faded,mine is still here,in my heart.
it was just yesterday tht you texted me,for our first monthsary.
and the next day,we're done. its kinda ironic to hear this.
this post is just how i feel and not to make you have the feeling of sympathy.
it's expected this will happen but i didnt expect it would be this quick.
idk wht went wrong,but you said it was everything.
so,im guessing tht i aint good enough for you.

Amy,i just wanna say thanks for all the sweet memories tht you've given me.
it will not be forgotten,easily.
i know you do not love me anymore but i still do.
i still love you,alot.

trying my best,just for you.

2010-03-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

i've not been blogging cause im either too lazy or too tired.

so,life's been quite perfect. Friends were there and especially my baby,Amy.
she's been so lethargic these days and she is temperamental when she's real tired and im trying not to get you pissed off,like tht time. Im just gonna let you do anything you want,even if it hurts me but i know all this is just for you. All i can do is just bear with your nonsense till you've cooled yourelf down. Until then,i will be there for you when no one else will.
so,just take care of yourself and text me when you feel better.
love you always,b. (:

fcuk tht school!

2010-02-08T20:18:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

I know its been a loooong time since i updated my blog. Im just lazy to do it and didnt have any mood to do so.
So now,i just wanna write about a soccer match which made me fcuking fustrated.
Im not gonna mention the name of the school but if you guys alr knew,then just keep it to urself.
I was subsituted on the 2nd half of the game and mr hisham place me on right back. i wanted to play centre mid but it was too late,i guess.
the first thing i got after 2mins of play was a torn lip. there was this guy and he's damn tall! like 1.8m or something. he went straight at me and just hit me in the face. wht else,my lip bleed. tht wasnt all. After tht,there was another tall freak! he jumped and just hit me thigh with his studs. it hurts lah sia! i think still got the marks. then he got a red card. HAHAHA.
and there's more. This guy went pass me and as a defender,you must win the ball back and i did with my body,which isnt foul play. so,i pushed him a side. then,tht guy wasnt happy with me,he pushed me,i pushed back and the ref stopped both of us. then there was a group chinese boys outside the field shouting vulgarities at me. TELL ME,WHO WOULDNT BE HAPPY? and of course,i went to them and said 'fcuk you,cb'. they showed this _l_
and i showed back.
after a while,i ignored them. wht for must i deal with their crap?AND,i fell hard quite a few times.
the game was just bullshit.
although we lost 4-0,we knew it wasnt a fair game. the ref was such a motherfcuker.
mr zul shouted and gave him several warnings. fierce aye?
seriously,the game was a waste of my time and energy.
some of us were damn angry with this school.
and of course,all of us left with much fustration.

moodless.

2009-12-27T01:33:00.001-08:00

Hello.

I am definitely in no mood to post but i didnt post for like a week now?
I slept at 2am! You know why? I cant stop thinking of her.
I miss her alot , y'know.
Its hard for me to just do something i like and not think of her.
So , anyways. Woke up at 9:45am and and and i didnt go for soccer training!
I went out to have breakfast with family at beach road garden i think?
Then got this guy , who is fcuking irritating.
WE ordered drinks alr then this old man kept asking : ' wht you want? teh tarik got'.
My dad was like , nvm and we ordered alr.
The old man kept asking again and again. And of course my dad was pissed.
He shouted : 'we ordered drinks alr! why must you keep asking? WE ORDERED ALR!'
He shouted at tht old man. haha. the old man go somewhere else.
Then we ate , blablabla. Then my mum talked to us bout this guy. He was a bad ass guy. Too lazy type. My dad was like : 'next time i see him , i whack him real bad. Kanina chibai.' haha. Its not the first time i heard tht from him but aren't parents not suppose to use fowl languages? Then we headed for peninsula next.
We bought lots of stuff. haha.
Then we went to millenia walk to look for my sister at coffee club. my mum's idea.
Saw my sister at the counter.
She looked so smart and decent. haha.
We ordered idk wht then took off.
Went back home.

I FCUKING MISS HER! I WANNA SEE HER! THINKING BOUT HER MAKES ME REALISE HOW IMPORTANT SHE IS IN MY LIFE.

Te Queiro , NSZ.

So sad.

2009-12-20T04:18:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Damn it! I didnt go for training bcoz of my toe. its still healing. Waliao. Sad aye?
Cousin Aleem followed my family to Malaysia to visit my grand-auntie , which is my granny's younger sis. Idk if there's such word. (:
So , i visited simply bcoz her husband died. So sad. I went there and ate and watched spongebob and watched mr bean. My effing cousin was so naughty he cant sit still.

We laughed alot bcoz he made stupid sounds. He's not over 'nacho libre'. We talked bout it the whole day and laughed the whole day and he keeps disturbing my lil bro. My lil bro laughs like a GAY and my cuz laughs like a crazy horse. So , imagine. HAHA.
My grand-auntie is so nice! She almost cried bcoz we didnt eat alot. Seriously , her attitude is so similar to my granny's. Thts all we did in Malaysia. Nothing much , really.
Then headed for WS. My cuz wanted to go to sportslink to look for a white sports shoe , so i accompanied him for a while.
Then he went to comics collection to look for toys and he's like 13?
HAHA , young at heart.
Went to Mac and we ordered some stuff.
We asked for 7curry sauce! S-E-V-E-N! Its alot , y'know.
Then headed home.

I kept thinking of her. I cant keep her outta my head for once. I miss her so badly.
Bie , there isnt anyone asking me to break up with you.
I want you to remember this :
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING!

Te Queiro , NSZ

Ouch!

2009-12-18T05:18:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Everyday is like the same? Did this , did that , played soccer.
I slept and woke up at 5:30pm.
Played soccer with a bunch of new guys.
Panna(ole) them alot of times. shiok!
Then they played hard and of course i did as well.
I tackled them then my toe started bleeding.
It looked minor so continue uh.
Then i realised my toe was covered in blood. Seriously , im not exaggerating.
I touched and shaked my toe then the blood started to drip.
The cut aint big and idk why there's so much blood.
It didnt hurt surprisingly.
Went home coz my friend started freaking me out.

Nazrul: go home uh sia , later kena amputated then cannot play soccer anymore.
Me: sial uh! dont freak me out uh! busted siak! kkay , i go back home.

Nazrul:haha , faster lah!

Funny sia. then i rushed back home then my mum was like , so stubborn. Wht does tht got to do with the injury? Washed my legs and toes. Covered in mud. best! haha.
I washed the blood. The blood flow down my leg. wow. Alot of blood!

I wanna do something else for a change. Like maybe meeting up with her.
My life has been empty after 12 December 2009.
That day freaked me out. Some of you knew wht happened.
So , i aint saying it again.
I wanna meet up,bie.

I MISS YOU , I MISS YOU , I MISS YOU!

Idk how much more of this i can take.
You are my addiction machine.
We'll meet up soon.

Te Queiro , NSZ

Funny!

2009-12-15T16:31:00.001-08:00

Hello.

There's nothing much to post about since there's not much tht happened.
It started as a normal everyday life for me.
Did this , did that and played soccer.
Around 7pm went to e!hub since my mum wants to claim this voucher.
We were otw to events square at downtown uh and my mum was otp with her friend.
Then got this 3 girls shouting 'ama!'. Seriously , it was god damn loud and irritating.
My mum got irritated bcoz she was stil otp then my mum was like 'oi!'.
HAHA. the 3girls then shut up. funny sia. then she continued talking to her friend.
We ate KFC then another group of chinese people started shouting here and there.
Like pasar malam.

Aku tanyer mak aku kalau dhe suker perangai cine , mak aku tak suker LANGSUNG!
Cine irritating jugak ader uh!
[maaf aku cakap melayu pasal aku tknk dorang paham ^^]

Then got this guy , he washed his hands alr. Then he sneezed and wiped his hands on his shirt.
The worst part is , he touched his friend and didnt wash it and he ate.
Eeeeee , so disgusting! Waliao.

Now , im really starting to miss her , alot.
I cant take it anymore.
We must meet A.S.A.P!
Bie , iloveyoualot.

Te Queiro , NSZ♥

TOO CONFIDENTIAL!

2009-12-13T22:52:00.000-08:00

I'm not gonna post bout yesterday and the day before tht.
I dont want to remember it!
I dont want it to happen again!
I dont know if letting you go is the right choice. Maybe it isnt , maybe it is.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
If we keep on doing this , you might get real hurt and i dont want that.
IF being with you is a risk then maybe i will consider not taking it coz you're too valuable to me to get you hurt just bcoz of me.
If you still wanna be with me , im okay with it.
So , i aint letting you go.
I WONT AND I NEVER WILL.
Being with you makes me happy , always.
but it is a risk.
IT IS A RISK THAT I WILL TAKE.
Whatever comes our way , we'll see it through and you know that's what our love can do.
Bie , tkcr of yrself.
We'll pull through this nightmare , together.
I love you lots.
I always did and always will.

Te Queiro , NSZ

What the FCUK?!

2009-12-11T15:12:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Good morning. Today is actually saturday but im gonna post bout yesterday , so here goes.
I woke up and i was an angry boy.
A REAL ANGRY BOY.
I woke up and i found out my handphone was lost.
I wasnt surprise who took it. My fcuking sister. Is she desperate or what sia?
She took the phone+sim card with her to work.
I was quite okay with it bcoz im used to it.
I wanted my phone badly , so i waited for her to come back which is around 2+pm?
When she came back , i asked for my phone. She kept quite.
There must be something obviously wrong isnt it?
My phone when inside the sink at coffee club , the place where she works.
FUCK!
LG KC550 sia!
She thinks its cheap or wht huh?
She got her own fcuking phone but no ppaid.
Desperate for text is it uh? CCB.
Just take the fcuking sim card!
The best part is , NOBODY DID ANYTHING! not even my mum.
I cant believe it. She didnt even scold her!
I didnt know why , she did nothing.
I earned the fcuking phone and now its gone!
Now , everytime i look at it , it makes me feel like doing something violent.
I didnt text my sayang for one whole day thanks to her and i dont know when is the next time i will.
Im not a person who goes for revenge.
I dont know wht to do.
Its my phone , i worked for it and now its simply gone. ):

2009-12-06T00:03:00.000-08:00

Danish , Myra Princess.

HI DANISH STALKERS, MYRA HERE. HEE HEE.
ALRIGHT, BEFORE I LOG OUT OF YOUR ACCOUNT AND GO INTO MINE,
DO ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY AND DONT EMO-EMO OKAY, MOTHERFCUKER. THOUGH YOU HAVE ALREADY DEPART BY NOW :S TOO LITTLE TOO LATE. I KNOW RIGHT.
OH ANDAND, THANKS FOR THE 2BUCKS! HAHAHA. DANISH VERY SELFISH, GIVE ME 2BUCKS BEFORE HE WENT OFF. AHAHA. BUT NEVERMIND LAR.
OKAY, WHATEVER. MAKE SURE YOU BUY ME SOMETHING OKAY.
BUY ME LOTS OF BUBBLE GUM AND CHOCOLATES OR BETTER, CLOTHES :P DONT COME BACK AND GIVE ME SARI. WORSE STILL, TURBAN -.- HAHAHA.
OKAY, DONT MISS ME. HEH.
BYEEEE.

Regrets , regrets , regrets. ):

2009-12-05T16:19:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Today is the 6th of December and on this date , im leaving for Sri Lanka.
Departing at 2:30pm. I wanna see her for the last time before i go.
Its gonna be for a week. Maybe 5days. Idk.
I miss her alot and im gonna miss her like HELL.
I said something that really really made her sad and freaked her out.
Im really really extremely sorry.
Everthing that affects her , affects me as well!
I hate myself now? ):

I REGRET not making her feel secure.
I REGRET making her feel down and sad all the time.
I REGRET not being there for her when she needs me.
I REGRET using harsh words on her.

BUT I CERTAINLY NEVER REGRET BEING WITH HER.
SHE'S THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN MY LIFE SO FAR.
AND I AINT RUINING OUR RELATIONSHIP JUST BCOZ OF ME.

Te Queiro , NSZ

5th of december.

2009-12-05T15:08:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Today is officially the 5th of december which marks the 4th month.
We did go out! Went to e!hub to catch a movie. We were so fickle minded. ZombieLand or new moon? ZombieLand or new moon? In the end , we watched new moon. I watched it once before but i dont mind watching it again since she wanted to.
I was noisy in the theatre and im sorry for tht. (:

After watching it , we went to pasir ris park bcoz she insisted on going.
We walked around and went inside the mangrove swamp. I went in for the first time.
It wasnt even scary! -.-
We walked ALOT! Our legs were tired , so we headed home.

Te Queiro , NSZ

Bie , im sorry for wht i said and i regret saying it.
I dont wanna lose you , y'know.
Iloveyou , alot.

I really do.

Soooo fast! :)

2009-12-04T05:19:00.000-08:00

Hello!

Today is the 4th of December. I didnt update on wednesday bcoz i didnt get the chance to.
Tmr is the 5TH! you know wht it means? it means tht me and my sayang will be together for 4 months! Weeeee~
We decided to catch a movie? A real early one since she has to go home by 6pm and im fine with it , as long as i see her pretty face , i dont mind. ^^
I hope all goes well and we can go out tmr.

FEEQAH , HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY!
OUR FOREVER IS GONNA HAPPEN , I HOPE.
I PRAY EVERYDAY FOR IT.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH , SAYAAANG! (:

Te Queiro , NSZ

Day2 without her.

2009-12-02T04:09:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Today was the same as yesterday but a little better. Everytime i go online , she would be a few minutes before i go online. Suay uh!
I didnt do much and stayed at home. I thought i wanted to go to soccer training but in the end , i didnt. Even if i went , i wouldn't be concentrating. I would just be thinking of her.
Well , i played soccer in the afternoon. Dominic was the funniest! We laughed more than we played! He kept commenting on us. HAHA. He was so effing funny!
We played and didnt realise the time , so we went back at 7:00pm.
Day2 without her was better than yesterday. Tmr she's coming back and she asked me to text her tmr night! weeeee~
Cant wait , cant wait , cant wait!

Te Queiro , NSZ.

Day1 without her.

2009-12-01T18:54:00.000-08:00

Hello.

This is Day1 without her. It is so fustrating. My life seems so empty and miserable!
I HATE IT , I HATE IT , I HATE IT! ):
I miss her so badly and its only been hours since she's away.
If only i can teleport , like nightcrawler. That would be the best. Then i can meet her.
But that's just fantasy.
I cant take it anymore and this is just the beginning.
2more days of torture.

In the afternoon , there's no point of going online since she's not and even if she is , it would be a few minutes after i went off. Dont do tht again , please?
The only thing tht can barely make me stop thinking of her is soccer but it didnt work.
I still played soccer but wasnt in the mood.
She's locked inside my heart.
My day was just empty , meaningless without her.
I MISS YOU , SYAFIQAH! ):

Te Queiro , NSZ.

Her enjoyment , my misery.

2009-11-30T17:08:00.001-08:00

Hello.

I am so god damn tired right now. I didnt sleep well. In fact , i slept at around 3:30am bcoz of something. Bie , dont do that to me , again. I freaked out like HELL yesterday , y'know tht?
It was worst than a nightmare. I woke up at 8:10am and i panicked bcoz i wanted to text her before she left for Bintan for 3 miserable days. Im gonna miss her alotlot. ):
Bie , tkcr and i'll always be thinking of you.
I miss you.
I'll update more later.
BYE!

Te Queiro , NSZ.

Same things happens again.

2009-11-30T00:03:00.000-08:00

HELLO.

I've watched newmoon already.! wakakaka. They show is veryvery nice. The wolfpacks are so cool.
They have nice bodies and they have a very cool circular tattoo on their right shoulder.
Anyways , Bella sucks in newmoon. She got scandal sia. You go watch and you'll realise it.
I aint ruining the mood.
After tht went back home and reached around 12:45am.

Then i remembered tht i bought a hair dye. So , i used it.
In the end , the colour aint so obvious , which is good. It can only be seen under the sun when its bright. Slept at roughly , 2am.?

Woke up at 6:30am for morning prayers. It can be very irritating when my mum wake us up for it.
After tht went back to sleep and woke up again at 8am. Got ready and then met up with her. We walked around and i decided to treat her at MacDon's. We ordered 2 Sausage McMuffin w/egg.
She didnt eat much , surprisingly.
After we ate , we walked around the neighbourhood and she remembered tht she used to take the very 'dark' staircase at the carpark. I forced her to follow me up. I know imma DEVIL.
In the end , the 'dark' staircase isnt so dark. -.-
After tht , she had to fetch her brother from hockey around 11:45am

I went back home and she asked me to go online. Which i did and she didnt. We fought for a while but everything's fine. Im sorry , bie. ):

Now , she's online and i dont wanna waste my time blogging and spend ALL the time with her.
Bye.

Te Queiro , NSZ.

2009-11-29T03:16:00.001-08:00

HI, DANISH READERS.

IF YOU HAVE BEEN STALKING ME AND READING MY BLOG! LOL.
THIS IS HIS SISTER. HEE HEE HEE. I WONDER IF DANISH KNOWS IM LIKE FLARDING HIS BLOG NOW! HEE HEE HEE. IF HE KNOWS I AM GONNA BE DEAD. I BET HE IS GONNA COMPLAIN TO ALLL MY 5SCANDALS. AHAHAH! BUT I THINK HE IS SUPECTING BUT I AM SOOOO ENJOYING THIS. BAHAHAHA. HE SEEMS SO BUSY TEXTING SOMEONE. OKAY, HIS GIRLFRIEND. BUT NEVERMIND. I THINK HIS BLOG IS BORING BECAUSE NO PICTURES RIGHT? NEVERMIND, I P[UT MY PICTURE OKAY ^^ AND NOW, HE IS CRAZZYYY. LAUGHING LIKE SOME HORSE. YOU SHOULD HEAR IT.
VERY VERY CRAZY YKNOW. ANYWAY, I JUST WANNA TELL YOU THAT TAYLOR LAUTNER IS HAAAWWT. HE MAKES ME DROOOOL OVER HIM :P BUT STILL, BECKHAM MAKES ME WANNA LICK HIS FARKING BODY. BAHAHAHA. KIDDING :P

=O , YET AGAIN. HIS BODY IS MUCH HOTTER THAN BECKHAM NOW. CAN I LICK 'EM ? AHAHAHA. PSYCHO. HEE HEE. OKAY, IMMA STOP NOW.
I BET HIS FACE MUST BE SUCKISH RIGHT NOW CAUSE HIS BLOG IS LIKE DAMN GAY NOW. HAHAHAHA. I'LL BE BACK FLOODING HIS DAMN BLOG SOON. OR MAYBE HIS TAGBOARD. AHAHAHA. ANNOYING SIAAAA AKU. TEE HEE HEE.

YAY, TONIGHT WE ARE GOING OUT TO WATCH NEW MOON. BAHAHA.
AT DOWNTOWN. IF YA SEE DANISH, SHOUT HIS NAME AND WINK OKAY.

BYE, DANISH STALKERs :P
Myra Princess (L)

I miss you. ):

2009-11-29T01:54:00.000-08:00

Hello.

I woke up at 6:45pm for soccer training at mango field.
Coach didnt come but there's a replacement.
The replacement coach sucks. He gave us fcuking little space to pass around.
WTH.
But coach khamis was the best. we trained shooting. The first time i took a shot nearly went outside the field. So surprising uh.
After tht we played 2-a-side with young players. Trashing sia. 20mins je. -.-
After tht went back home and went out again. Went to tamp to teman Hafiz and my bro go haircut.
Klakar sia. Hafiz looked like a primary school boy. HAHA.
After tht to rasa21 and i met my P4 religious teacher.! He slimmed down , i think.
I miss him alot uh. He gave me good grades for the subjects.
Chit-chat for a while and then went to meet a friend.
Buto uh he. He texted my sayaaang like his enemy. -.-
Bie , im sorry for tht. ):
Then went back home at 4:30pm.
Legs are so god damn painful.

I wanna eat and that's all folks. (:

Te Queiro , NSZ.

Im sorry for today ,bie. Its just tht i miss you alot. i wanna spend all the time together before you and i go for your vacation and it will be a very long time for the next time we'll meet. So , i hope on monday we can slack for the last time. (:

Bad day , Bad day. ):

2009-11-29T01:52:00.000-08:00

2009-11-27T05:19:00.001-08:00

Hello.

TODAY IS HARI RAYA HAJI.!
woke up in the morning to go for prayers. after tht went home and visited my grandma(mum's side) then went for friday prayers.!
The place was soo god damn crowded. I think even worse than a busy pasar malam. Seriously.!
There were lots of bangladeshi. Not surprising since Jurong area is an industrial area.
The time when the prayers began , it was so god damn squeezy. its like you must really really squeeze uh.! That's not the worst.! The worst was the end. Everyone was like rushing to go out of that mosque. I was forced to sit down there and wait for everyone. By the time there wasnt much peeps , i stood up and went outside. Surprisingly , it was still crowded. All the bangladeshi workers were pushing here and there. One of them pushed me and i pushed back. I didnt care.
It took 20mins for me to exit the mosque. The place was so hot.! Sweat like a pig. The rest i'll update tmr. bye.

Te Queiro , NSZ.
and my hot sister tooo, Myra Princess. HAHAHAHA.

Happy day.

2009-11-26T02:04:00.000-08:00

Vanakam peeps.

Had a very very happy day. Met up with feeqah. I ALWAYS say meet at 8:00am under the block but ended up meeting her 20mins later. I'm always late. (:
She doesnt mind , so i dont mind too.
Sent her to school for floorball.
When she's tired uh , woah fickle minded habes.!
"Should i go.? I wanna go.? I tired uh. Can i go.? Long time never go uh , miss playing but tired uh.".
That's her. My lovely feeqah. She thinks like a granny coz she is one. My HOT GRANNY. (:
In the end , didnt go floorball and went to McDonalds to claim the free sausage mcmuffin. Idk how to claim so if i do it wrongly , like pai seh. She did it for me and it was hers.
Then went to block 700+ to slack. Slacked from 10+ to 12:30pm. We had fun.
Its been a long long time since i had tht particular feeling.
So , thank you for tht moment with you. (:
I hope we can do tht again , soon.

Te Queiro , NSZ.

I miss you. ):

2009-11-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

Hello and good evening. time now is 9:02pm.

I dont have much to say but i need to say this :

I MISS YOU.
YOU KNOW WHO IM REFERING TO. YES , ITS FEEQAH.
I hope we can meet tmr.imissyou alot already

Te Queiro , NSZ..

It's been a long time.

2009-11-24T01:07:00.000-08:00

Hello.
It's been a very long time since you post bout me.
Even you did , it turns out to be NEGATIVE ones.
Idk wht is needed to make things right and that's why i need your help to help me figure it out.
I'm trying my best to make it right again
So , dont make my life so troublesome
I need you so bdly. ):

Te Queiro , NSZ

Another day of hopelessness.

2009-11-23T18:34:00.000-08:00

WHY.? Why does these kinds of things happen to me.?
WHY ME.? WHY NOT SOMEONE ELSE.?
Seriously , how am i NOT suppose to feel fcuking useless.?
Bie , bear with this post. It's a lil harsh.
JUST WHAT IS IT THAT ISN'T COMPLETE.?
Is it just me.? Am i paranoid.? Am i too clingy.?
I dont EVEN know the FCUKING ANSWER!
What am i suppose to do now.? Sit there and just think about all these.?

FUCK THIS LIFE.

Its never the end.

2009-11-23T02:20:00.001-08:00

Hello. Deleted my previous post coz i dont wanna hurt her.
Better off not knowing.
I've got something to share , a valuable lesson i learnt from feeqah.
Although its like the end for you , it NEVER is.
There will be at least someon you know to cheer you up.
The person who cheered me up , is the person who loves me most , NSZ.
She used ever-loving words that simply changed my mood and attitude today.
I would like to THANK YOU for that.
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH , SAYAAANG♥ (:

Te Queiro , NSZ♥

I feel completely useless. );

2009-11-22T17:45:00.000-08:00

Hello. Nothing much to post about today.
Im just feeling a lil bit down.
Most probably bcoz i feel F***ING USELESS and HOPELESS to her.
Im sorry. These two words are sincerely said and its for you to accept it or not.
Its like 'the end of the world for me'.
Idk wht to say.
I always say things and didnt deliver any of those promises.
My BRAIN is damn jammed today.

Te Queiro , NSZ.

24/7 soccer.

2009-11-22T16:30:00.000-08:00

Hello again.Okay,post is for yesterday, 22nd November.
Again , im gonna make a long story short.
Woke up at 6:45am bcoz i have training at mango field. The training was okay. Had some simple training and then played 2-a-side. Both matches we won. first match was 4-1 i guess. the second match was 5-4. Scored the winning goal and im so proud. HAHA.
Training ended at 10:30am after tht we wanted to leave but then two teams went in an d one of them said they didnt have enough players. So , Hafiz and i volunteered. Hafiz played quite well until we was tackled and was forced to sub. SO , i made my debut. haha.
I played for 1hour and 30mins or so. My first shot at goal , i nearly scored. the second and third time , even closer. Chance wasted. The first half ended 2-0. The second half began. We were a bit better and i scored a goal against the opposing team. the game ended 4-1. The teams were around 16-19years old but they said i played well and was shocked tht i was only 14.
I dont look old sia. WTH. -.-
After tht went back home at 2:30pm. Bathe , rest and played soccer again at loyang. It was super funny. This Japan guy came in and asked the ball in a VERY VERY funny way. His accent was damn funny. My new friend , Amir called him rotijohn and tht japanese guy said chickendodol. He kept saying 'back' , 'shoot' , 'goal'. ahaha , we laughed more than we play. the game ended at 7:00pm and headed back home. Otw home , i saw feeqah's mum , or at least we did. The person looked EXACTLY like her mum. I called her and asked her if her mum's at home and said she is. Idk if she's lying to me again or its just another look-a-like. Only god knows.
I didnt contact her the whole day and was pretty sad. imissyou , alot. ):

Btw , sorry for making this post damn long. :)

Te Queiro , NSZ.

Melacca Trip.

2009-11-22T16:19:00.000-08:00

Hello. Today is monday and i didnt blog about anything for the past few days.
Im gonna make a long story short.
On SATURDAY , i woke up at a DAMN early time. At 5:30am to be exact bcoz we gotta get ready for the melacca trip. The melacca trip was okay , quite boring. The best part was breakfast , lunch and dinner. Foooooh~ High class uh and the whole day , they serve CHINESE TEA except for breakfast. Lunch they serve chinese tea and dinner as well. Plain water would be better.
Bought some stuff and went back home at 10:30pm. Then i texted feeqah and i did something stupid. REAL DUMB. and im extremely sorry and i shouldn't have said it. ):

Bad day.

2009-11-20T18:51:00.000-08:00

Back from tamp. Banyak peyh trials. Hujan semcm sia. So , so much for trials. Coincidentally , the coach at tamp west is matnor's(punggol coach) friend. Puki sia. DIEDIEDIE.He knows my standard. Walanneyh. I just have to prove him wrong , right.? After going to tamp west , headed back home but still played soccer. The pitch was effing muddy but still played. Macam babi. ahaha. After tht , went back home. Tmr going malacca , so most probably wont be online till night. Buying feeqah something , i hope i can find one. Chatting with athirah. hah. So , tmr there will be a post.
Te Quiero , NSZ.

Bad day.

2009-11-20T03:03:00.001-08:00

Trials.

2009-11-19T18:16:00.000-08:00

Hello and good morning. Woke up early again.
Can’t sleep sia. Probably bcoz i’m too excited for the trials today.
Hope it doesn’t rain AND WISH ME LUCK. Hafiz said i could make it into the first team , idk.
Cant be too confident. Currently chatting with Azlinah , SaidSobri and Feeqah (: I’ll post later at night or in the evening. I guess. Azlinah , thanks alot. You’re a BIG help. I owe ya. Ahaha.

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2009-11-18T19:59:00.000-08:00

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